Do ... You ... Remember..??

Jan 8, 20142 min read

Deviation Actions

Published: Jan 8, 2014

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...Do you remember..how the skin of your arms was being open by that sharp knife? Do you? Because I do.
Do you remember, how hot and sharp was the knife, each time getting deep and deeper, cutting the skin, veins, and muscles? Do you remember? Because I do.
Do you remember... that sensation of.. fire, burning in the open wound, as you were pushing and forcing the scalpel to get a deeper wound, because all what you did earlier, before, all that damage to yourself wasn't enough? Do you remind about that? Because.. yes, I do.
Do you remember...the way... how intense it was burning, seeing your flesh, and then came out the blood, how magical was that feeling? when the wound was burning and the blood was turning off the fire? feeling relieved? seeing as the blood was falling off to the floor, painting in red your skin and clothes, crying with a sensation of satisfaction...yes, satisfaction and sadness at same time? knowing that what you were doing was wrong, but it felt soo right in that very moment? It's impossible to forget that right? so... Do you remember? Because I do.
Do you remember, all those times, when you got caugh up with your head, with your thoughts, that you lost the track of time, and lost the touch with reality as well, so the only escape, was cutting yourself, over and over again? Do you remember? so do I.
Do you remember, all the times when you just hurted yourself, just to see if you were able to feel something? Do you... remember? Yes, me too.
Do you remember, all the times, when you swore to yourself, "this is the last time" Do you remember? Yeah, I do as well.